Payton

It is with great sadness that I write this next post.  Life sometimes just doesn't go exactly as you would like.  Brent and Latisha went into their first doctor appointment at 12 weeks.  The doctor could not hear a heartbeat so asked if she could do an ultrasound.  The ultrasound showed a little baby 9 1/2 weeks with no heartbeat.  Latisha and Brent had no idea anything could be wrong and were totally shocked and extremely heart broken.  The doctor tried to find any movement but couldn't.  Latisha said she couldn't see much through her tears but was fully aware of what was going on.  There was a possibility that the dates may be off, so the doctor said the ultrasound was pretty clear but if she didn't start miscarrying that weekend then she would schedule another stronger ultrasound at a specialist.  She told them of what to expect and different procedures they could choose to help things along.  The weekend was long and they stayed home from the family reunion, just the three of them, trying to sort through everything.

When Latisha called me I was devastated.  I didn't know what I was supposed to be doing.  But we agreed that if there was any chance for this baby we would pray and seek God's favor.  We reached out to our close family friends and asked for their prayer.  I explained the situation to the kids as we drove to the reunion and we all cried, but we prayed and believed God for His best.  

The week went by slowly but Latisha felt God with her all week and knew that God was working all things for good.  I was so proud of the way she handled the situation.  She was scared and full of emotion, yet so strong. Her trust was in the Lord.  I know this isn't about me, but as "Grandma and Mama" my heart was breaking for both my unborn grandbaby and for my daughter and her hubby. 

 Friday arrived and Brent and Latisha went in for their ultrasound.  David and I stayed at the house with August and waited.  I received a text confirming our worst fear.  Although we are greiving we feel such peace knowing that this baby is with Jesus, the almighty, our God and Savior and redeemer. We will meet this little person someday and love on him or her.  We know that this baby was and is a life, a life that meant something, that was created in the image of God.  We will spend eternity with this child in heaven with God.  Life is a miracle, the fact that any of us make it to the point where we are now, is a miracle.  So, it is with sadness but hope that we say goodbye to this child till we meet again.  Thankfully at the last ultrasound they were able to get a picture and they named the baby, Payton Mateo.  Payton was a name they both liked, but couldn't decide if it was a boy or girl name.  Since they do not know the gender they thought the name perfect.  Mateo was chosen because it means God's gift, and truly this baby was God's gift. We love you Payton and look forward to seeing you.  Dear Jesus, please give this child a big hug from Grandma and Grandpa.  

May God be with you.  God is Good and is working all things together for good.  

Alicia